They think about it
They look for times when they will be
As soon as they have that in place, they start thinking about where to get the food
and go almost unconscious in the process, like they are in a trance themselves.
They decline phone calls, going out, invitations especially to dinner
If they have already binged and purged once in the day, they know they will do it again
They hold secrets,
They make excuses
They don’t answer the phone
They think about it
They isolate, disassociate from others
Their whole lives are focused on planning and executing this singular function
They ask themselves why they are doing this to themselves,
They keep doing it.
They minimize the damage they are doing to themselves
They tell themselves it’s just one more time
Afterwards they are harder and harder on themselves, self hatred is huge.
It they had a whip to use, they would be bloodied and bruised
They have a hard time looking into their own eyes in the mirror
They have and hold a deep hatred and distrust of themselves.
 
It’s a pattern, I tell them we are “pattern busters” and that’s all we are interested in doing. Once the pattern is interrupted they can restructure new strategies to reframe their lives in.
 
I also use hypnotherapy and use regression to get to the feeling that triggers the pattern. Sometimes it’s way back. It’s got rejection patterns all over it, and it gets tied to beliefs that they are loathsome, bad, ugly, and must be punished.
 
There is also a trigger to the “purging” part. I found that every woman that is purging is really trying to purge something inside her that she agreed to hold and her body/self/soul/energetic field is TOTALLY in disagreement with her believing  what she is believing. The purging part is trying to get rid of this energy!
 

It’s a subject unto it’s own! I’m using this to help my bulimia client release the old cords of blame, self hatred, guilt. And then flaming the brilliant sun through the solar plexus.  They can’t carry babies this way. They can permanently damage their ability to have a child at all.
 
You know Richard says that’s the SECOND BRAIN, the GUT…that’s also where we carry our infants…women that is!
 
I have some of my women tell me they think they are making it all up when in deep sessions!  I say to them, no, that’s your conscious mind trying to keep you little and powerless….but your subconscious mind knows the truth! You are powerful and beautiful! 
 
Last night another beautiful young woman! Dark, lovely skin, really lovely girl….and I was driving her to the station after the session, and saying, “so many won’t allow these good affirmations to go in, it’s like they have turned their cup upside down. Unless it’s a negative message, it’s not getting in!”  She looked down and said quietly, “I do that”.
 
So I said, “what about turning that cup upside right and just seeing what happens over the next week?” I also suggested maybe she could just notice the places where she doesn’t let the good in, and will carry on with anything negative. Baby steps!
 
Some Testimonials: 
“It’s Sonja here, and you treated me for bulimia few months ago.  I thought I'd just give you a quick update on how and what I'm doing now that it's been almost half a year since we've met.  I moved out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend into an apartment in Vancouver some weeks after you and I last met.  I worked for a giant company (Air Canada) for a month as well.  Working at that job was a really good thing for me in a small but significant sense.  It was a 9 - 5 job working with tons of other individuals in a scheduled break and mealtime environment.  So there was little to no temptation for me to overeat, feel like crap, and thus purge.  I decided to slow down and think about what I was doing.  I realized that I am in control of my life and that I make the decisions.  I've been working there now for four months and it's great! I have made new friends, I love my staff and co workers, I make great money in tips, work good, flexible hours, and am generally so much more happy!!! Ive turned my physical and mental side around too.  I don't abuse food anymore, I eat when Im hungry and stop when I'm not.  And food and calories don't threaten me anymore.  (I have a new found love for mayonaise!) I am just generally so happy with my life and myself, and have learned that I am in control of it and don't need bulimia to make me feel in control.
Again, I want to thank you so much for helping me and opening up things inside of me that were struggling to break through.  I think that relapsing for some people is part of the healing process in that it shows you how to be in control.
My life is forever changed for the better.
sincerely, SONJA”
 

And this is from another client:
Hi Kathy!
I just wan't to let you know how i am doing since the last session....
I still have some fear but otherwise im really feeling more confident! 
But I can say for sure I am feeling much better, optimistic and i am in much better mood than before the sessions! And that really makes me happy since i was really "depressed" before... I have an job interview on Monday at SFU for some administrative work and this may be a good way to socialize and meet some young people... i will soon let you know how i am doing.